3 weeks in

 

Okay so I am not very good at keeping this up to date weekly. I have been super busy with life things so I will update you on where I am at. Quite honestly, this has been one of the most challenging things I have done. I knew it would be when I went into this. I guess I just underestimated exactly HOW challenging this would be for me. Mentally, emotionally, and physically. I am at that point right now where I want to quit.. I would seriously KILL for a doughnut right now. I look at myself and I don't see change. I don't see a difference, and it is incredibly frustrating. You get so use to how you look everyday, I guess you just don't see the change. Which is why I have made sure to take weekly pictures so I can reflect just how far I have come in three short weeks. Some of these are small changes, but they are changes!! Every single day I grow more and more in love with this process and how much it has helped me improve myself in different ways.

You will also notice I have pretty much the same bra on in most of these pics... I swear I do laundry! haha once a week in fact my clothes get washed! I just happen to wear the same ones each time I have taken my weekly pic I guess!

 

First day of the challenge

 

 Top pics week 1, bottom week 2

 

 Top pic week 2, bottom pic week 3

I am super bloated here in week 3.. stupid bloat!

 

I am working every single day to better myself not just physically but mentally, spiritually, and emotionally. The biggest thing I am working on for myself is to be more positive. So that is my challenge to you. I completely believe there is positivity to each situation. It is just a matter of seeing it and believing it. I have about 7 more weeks to go of the actual challenge. However, the trainer I purchased is a full 12 weeks so technically I have about 9 more weeks to go. I have to keep fighting and pushing. Through every single set back I keep facing, I will get through it and won't let it stop me. This was what I told myself when I started. I wasn't going to let my excuses get in the way ever again. Old habits are hard to kill, but I am also incredibly stubborn. If you are also doing the Ashley Horner Transform You Challenge, or are doing/have done her trainers, please follow me and I will follow back!! Support systems work! I can't thank my support groups enough for listening to me during my up's and down's. Now.. if someone could kindly make me a super healthy doughnut I can eat that tastes AMAZING... I will love you forever!

 

Jackson Hole, WY.

A little bit of my photography from over this last weekend! These were just a few of my favorite shots! Thanks for peeking :)

Transform You Challenge DAY 1

Happy Monday ya'll! It has been a minute, I needed to step back and take care of a few things! So for those who follow my Social Media pages know I am starting a Transform You Challenge with Ashley Horner. 

TODAY IS DAY 1... and I have already sucked! I had every single intention of waking up early and going to do my fasted cardio, but my insomnia decided otherwise so I slept through ALL 6 ALARMS!! The day is not over though. This is a 10 week challenge, so I will do my best to keep you posted weekly of my progress and challenges I am facing with this. 

I chose to do this because I want/need to push myself. I want to get stronger and I figured this would be a great way to boost me to where I want to go. Plus after looking at my before pictures.. I could use the extra push. Not that I am fat or out of shape, those stupid pictures are just COMPLETELY unflattering and terrible. I look at those pictures and think... that is not me. That is not what I look like!!!! It literally makes me mad, so NO I will not be posting them, YET. Not that I am embarrassed but it is an incredibly vulnerable thing for me to post, and I am not ready for that because that is 100% not how I see myself everyday when I look in the mirror. 

This challenge is going to help push me to be the best I can be. If you have never done any of Ashley's trainers before I will briefly explain how they work. I have only done one before so I am sure they will vary between trainers.  Much like many other trainers, she will give you meal plans to follow and a training guide. It then is up to you to follow each step and to push yourself. You don't have someone physically there to push you. In 2015 I did Ashley's Becoming Extraordinary trainer

This time I have chosen to do Magnify You-
"Magnify You (magnify yourself) is just that! Making your presence known by increasing your strength and muscle definition while staying lean. Magnify You is a 12 week program encouraging you to lift as heavy as you can and to NOT BE AFRIAD to lift heavy. Magnify You has many pyramid lifting techniques, drop sets, super sets and more. Magnify You has less cardio than Becoming Extraordinary."

 It had me sold at lift heavy and LESS CARDIO! The challenge is only 10 weeks.. however, I plan on following the full 12 week training guide. 

So like I said, I will do my best to keep you updated on my whole journey! I am so excited for this process and I already miss doughnuts and pizza! This is for me, and my future. I refuse to hold myself back and say I can't do this.. because I know I can. Yes the 4K would be SO nice to win, but that isn't the point here for me. I want and need to push myself harder than I ever have before. I refuse to let my health issues and my excuses keep holding me back from everything I have dreamed about having for myself. Here is to day 1 to the rest of my life!